Well. I had not realized it'd been almost a year since I've posted here. (Yes, Dana, the irony.) To be honest, it was less procrastination and more forgetting to do it. I've worked on and off (actively) on taming the beast, with mixed results. I decided to take the journal (as it were) out, dust it off, and continue to grapple with this issue. Especially since I have had some very important news since I last posted:
I got into a PhD program! I start this fall at University of Georgia, in the history department, studying 19th century US politics, culture, etc. I'm incredibly excited.
Of course, this also means I will be moving in August, to Athens, so I can do said program. It'll be a big move, and I'll be living there for five years at least, I think, so I need to get things settled for that in the next few months.
The thing is, since I've been in possession of this news, I've been incredibly slack about all the other things in my life, even though I am still several months away from moving and taking this next step. I am still teaching (summer classes are coming up) and doing work on the Jacob Cox project, as well as working at Carowinds. And so I have mountains of things still to do, but I rather consider them as part of my life as it was, not what will be. However, here they are, part of my present existence and having to be done, yet my procrastination is as bad as, if not worse than, ever.
I have a list that's been put together for over a week now, but I don't think I have more than one thing crossed off of it (besides one other thing that has to do with getting ready for the fall). I can't drop the ball now. I really can't. Because as excited as I am for going back to school this fall, these bad habits, this letting procrastination take over, will follow me there as well, if I'm not careful and I don't make headway now. It will only get worse if I don't do something about it. And I have to. I don't want to fail at the thing I've been working so hard for forever.
I'm going to put the important things up on the side there --> and I will start work on them tomorrow (I only say tomorrow because there is very little left in today, as it is 11:15 now). I can't drop the ball, I just can't.
So HaSafran and I were talking yesterday about an article he read on adult ADD (as you know, he's a textbook case), and the emphasis on procrastination and on starting and finishing projects got me wondering if this was something you've ever considered? The article was ultimately arguing that most cases of adult ADD go undiagnosed b/c it doesn't look the same in adults as it looks in children.
ReplyDeleteAnyhoo, I'm not suggesting you are (or are not) but I'm wondering if you ever thought to pursue this question.
Not pursue it, not really, but I have wondered if that might be the case. I don't know enough about it to really tell; I might ask my doc about it, though. My sister seems to have it, though.
ReplyDeleteWell, again, I don't know that you do, either. But I will say, considering I have a husband who has ADD, if you DO have it, there are so many resources out there (not just meds, but that's an option as well) that could be very helpful. Now, b4 the PhD starts may be a good time to get it figured out.
ReplyDeleteHaSafran said that if you do have it and you try ritalin, it will take a few days to build up enough in your system for you to feel a difference.